| Well, this is my last post and Im gonna leave this up forawhile so everyone can read it then im closing this down...... First of all I never forgot who my freinds are, I chose the freind I had for a reason. I love my sister and she will always remain one of my true best freinds in my heart. After all she is the only one who has respected my desion thus far... I know she doesnt aggree with this whole situation among others. But she knows how i feel and she knows how to act with it... Theres no bros before hoes, Theres no ho s, and yea you ll be my bro untill you tell me other wise... Wise bud of mine told me it is the nature of things, things change its just how it is....My reply was we all control what changes in our lives. As with everything in nature change is made to help us survive and prosper.. Seems yea i always choose the hardest path in front of me.. I enjoy struggles and hard ship, getting through things shows how strong a person can be....Now Lee how many times have I expressed i dont really like us talking like this, but till this point I have avoided all disrespect twards Casey, that is her name and although many references come to mind that we have both said together I ll retain the cheap words for my own thoughts. I havent changed, I have become more distant, mostly due to my own lazyness to go anywhere or do anything or times it was our own stubborness that kept us apart, lately its been aggrevation.... Lee I know you wish i was around more i wish I wasaround more but theres things between us, Lara expressed her veiws about casey freely that was her thing she can do that, she thought you guys were freinds and she could tell yyou what she though about the whole you and casey thing getting back together.. Her mistake expressing that i guess... Casey dug her hole by saying all those things about Laura thinking she wouldnt see it. Laura can do what she wishes to her and say what she wants.. Figured you of all people would understand that, and u did for awhile but you felt by taking a deaper dig into laura, like casey tried to would maybe bring you closer with me... No its just trying to show casey you ll back her up.OK thus making me more eager to vent my rage.. No thats not a threat.. I just find it childish to spread drama on here, lee real men talk.....I love laura its my choice, if it happens to bite me in the ass one day let it be, so far its made me etremely happy and sometimes extremely frustrated. But in the end its life struggles and hardships...... You have gotten back with the girl you said you were always meant to be with... I wish the best, and in the end i just want you to be happy, I never said dont do i to lee, dont get with her.. I just told you the facts and maybe it was a bad idea.. And i know you so well lee..... You know in your own mind its not meant to be but only that it feels so damn good to your heart.... Until it starts to get old and the heart looses control of the mind and the mind retains rational thought and you remember what you felt last time, the the mindless lost little girl you were in love with isnt for you... That the love you felt became just like the smell of glue on the first day of school... A good feeling of memories yearning to be there again... You cant survive on the smell of glue lee. We have discussed the situation we walk our paths and noone can cchange our minds.... Now I know your mind tells you the girl cant be trusted.. And there remains to be doubts is she with you becuase of your success. Could she just want the fun old times again? Well the old time feelings and trust will be tested and you success possibly troubled.... As your heartis in control you mind tricks it and depression settles in... You still love her but as you sit at school hrs away studying your mind wanders and remember what she did to matt... You tell your self its different after all she wasallways meant to be with you....Then the depression takes back other and suspicion comes in and you cant study and you call see what she s doing, no answer the first time then you wonder is she out with Matt, maybe some other guy or guys.. Is she flirting hmmmmbetter call again.... who know from there.... With alll that goin onyou begin to think this isntwhat i want my carreer is more important and you think of excuses to end it... She has no direction in life.. Still lost finding who she is!! YOU of course couldnt under stand being who you are being wiht someone so lost in life... then Seeing all the other girls at yourschool noticing what you really want, A fun out going strong girl with more direction then you... Some one driven and going places not a free loader riding the coat tails of success.... And well down hill from there, and if you arent thinking this she will be and youknow this and this knowledge will lead you two farther apart.....
Lee no one knows us better then us and maybe im right and maybe you are too..... who knows but I ll be there for you wether you crash or rise to the occassion i promised my life to being your best freind There i will be if you like it or not... WE do need to work on our own things with us we were freinds before the girls and we will befreinds with the girls ifthat cant get alog whocares we are stronger then a majoirty of theworld So lets get our own things situated and they can hald theirs Ilov eyou lee and we will always be here for each other but from now on we leave our destinys to destiny and our freindship to OUR freindship.....WE are brothers and tough times are here and we will rise and say fuck it we are here for each other........
Soooooo lets go do something just us and leave our hearts out of our freindship.....
JUSt us
KEv |
